Logging off now. We ( me, my mum, dad, and brother ) had a beloved springer spaniel named Cooper. So if you have dogs, even if they have lived with other pets, please keep your new pet separated at all times during feedings. That's the most inspirational thing I have read all day. Talking and writing about it is healthier than ignoring it, and can help you process your grief. Lameness. Holding myself. I had been watching him in the mirror, and then I didn't see him any more. Some time later I found out If only I could have went downstairs I could have gotten hold of him. #4. We lost a friend to suicide, we lost family to COVID, we watched a neighbors house burn down with all of their fur babies inside. I was in between a coffee table and the sofa she must of been coming up behind me about to bite them. We made a 7 hour round trip drive to pick him up. - iKlsR. Im so sorry that I failed you. They took 3 but would not take the 4th one. Accidentally killed my dog!! This is a wonderful relationship in general. I just kept planning these grand things for her future. She always had food in her last year but, water was far between. Press J to jump to the feed. When I moved her onto my chest she started having violent spasms and flung herself off of me. This year we found a small lump and I said we need to keep an eye on that . She soiled herself at the onset and at one point I put my finger in her throat to check for foreign body and she subsequently bit down quite hard. You may think its stupid to not play an entire game if a charcter dies but i like to get into the story of single player games and im not interested in playing some cliche ridden game where the dog dies. Her eyes were sunken into her skull. 1. He was then in the new kennel for the week so he didnt have to be involved in the stress of moving day. We didnt want any more pain for her so we let her go . I will never forget or be able to get the attack out of my head. Its a fucked up confession but what therapist treats their patient by telling them how awfully they are? We all really just got use to Gwen and she seemed to like us. Well getting the seat off wasnt the problem. I do love her. You are going to get through this. A few years ago we had adopted a kitten named Ryuu. I should have put on the belt inside rather than being lazy and thinking of putting it in the elevator. Its our fault for choosing to leave him there. I went after her as she collapsed to the ground. See the unfiltered opinions of strangers. My mind was distracted and I just feel I could have made contact with the neighbour more and asked about them while we were away. But then my cat died and now my hamster is gone and its my fault for not making sure the fort was secure, the pump was covered, and I wasnt there to save her. No matter what happens, youll always be Bun Number 1. I'm so sorry to hear that. So, I went to the laundry room (which is right outside my bedroom . We ( me, my mum, dad, and brother ) had a beloved springer spaniel named Cooper. He died within few minutes after having the symptoms. I knew I couldnt keep them so I started searching for homes. They put her in an incubator. The integration went well. I did think twice about it before I put her to bed for the night, and ran it past my wife, but she said to me shell be fine. I feel desesperate. She died because she had to have surgery to remove some of her colon and she got an infection gone the following morning. Then the second time he did this again and i called the vet they said to watch him and if it doesnt go away bring him in, so I brought him in. I lost my best friend Felix on Tuesday. my dog was dead. This book will help you understand why your feelings are so overwhelming, and help you cope with the guilt you feel about your pet's death. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. We found out she was about 14 years old, had no teeth, was blind in the other eye as well, and only weighed about 3lbs. Mid-evening the other vet called. The only difference is we have no consequences from most of our mi. I put him in a box and took him home. We moved away from the city over a yr ago but due to the pandemic my daughter and I havent made and connections. None of it would have happened if the vet was not so complacent and careless. I Love Him soo much. I told her I can easily observe her for improvement. Grieving the loss of a pet is often as painful as mourning a close friend or relative. This happened on new years Eve. I was so sick yesterday I said to myself I will take us both to doctors tomorrow morning. The worst part is I didnt know it was still that serious, I didnt think she was in danger of dying anymore. Up until the Monday before we dropped him off there was a lot going on in the house, removing furniture, packing boxes etc, which I can only imagine how unsettling this was for him . But I had tried to take measures to ensure they we well cared for even asking the neighbour to keep an eye out for whether they wanted letting in or out and giving her a key. The minute it stopped entertaining you you didnt care if it died. She was getting too use to living with us and I knew it, yet I still wanted to see her fly free. Not sure Ill ever be able to forgive myself. If your actions led to your pets death, you have to keep reminding yourself that you did not deliberately harm your dog or cat. Investigators at the scene where L.A. County sheriff's deputies opened fire on a dog, accidentally striking and killing a teen, officials say. She said the urine was normal yet it showed blood and protein. I killed my beloved pup by putting Bravecto anti flea and tick drops on him. You can never be too careful with our sweet pets. I was begging her not to leave me, mind you, and when I saw she was lucid I sung her favorite song to her. We came home from somewhere and here it came following her, my wife stumbled and stepped on that poor little kitten. They had put him in a black garbage bag out in their driveway. She seemed to have some level of coming to when I would resume cpr. Call us at 214.200.4878. Love you and may we meet again. I hate how it ended and am having an extremely difficult time shaking the feeling that I caused his death through neglect and that he died feeling lonely, trapped, unloved, thirsty, and abandoned on top of all of his physical health problems. Shortly after she arrived, I came down with Covid. And don't get another dog. I walked with him to the barn area also on occasions. On Thursday at 6.45 pm I accidentally backed over our beautiful family cat Bella, 16 years old. Ive read these post and I can tell you all genuinely LOVED your pets. She failed to alert me to any seriousness of condition. What if I'm searching for hours and can't find him at all; I only got him a month ago and I can't even assure that he won't run away?! And I was rewarded for my efforts. My husband feels more guilty and blames himself. I really did and I know thats probably hard to believe in reading this but, she was my baby. I actually didnt want her at my place because of the responsibility. This was no accident either. She was such a good cat and theres an empty space in my heart without her. This book will help you understand why your feelings are so overwhelming, and help you cope with the guilt you feel about your pets death. No, in reality, a dog owner should not be suing a veterinarian if they think Cerenia has been the cause of their pet's death. I noticed there was still some unsteadiness in her back legs, but she walked up the stairs herself and lay down in her bed. And now I blame myself for choosing euthanasia. She was very warm which led me to believe this didnt just happen. I rushed to the vet and he said that he had cardiac arrest already. I left to Zumba class to get distracted and get support didnt make it back home until the next day she was weak so immeditly I gave her Pedialyte she seem weak gave her amoxicillin then I decided to give her some wet food she didnt want to eat but I figured she need it food for her immuy system to fight her infection i forced fed her 2 syringes of wet dog food right away she went weak i rushed to the vet was there in 8 min right away the vet started working on her 15 min later she died the Vet told me that it was most likely she died because of me force feeding her that it went to her lungs. The dog was nowhere to be seen and I thought she had gone to the back yard to where my husband was. I miss you so much. You should feel bad. But I want all who commented to know that you are not alone in your agony and that, as I pray about my own grief, I will include all of you, and your pets, in my prayers. I feel so much guilt that i killed him and Im so so sorry for everything. I havent even bought the game but i want to know if the dog dies. Then she began to growl and puff out and fight the bed. I could have not been selfish and just left him home! But, if you hit a dog, you have to stop. Looking back on it I remembered my washing machine was louder than normal, but I didnt think anything of it. Please take a moment to read it its the comments on this article that inspired me to write it. If I feel like this, then I can only imagine how people feel when children are involved. He did it so many times over the years that my wife and I just got used to it, and took it for granted that he would always come back safe. I thanked her for her life. You didnt deserve to die like that, you were my moms companion during her cancer and now with all her after effects. - JoshDM. Im a truck drivera rookie. We have spent a lot of money so far trying to heal him but he might have problems for life . I had errands to run and I strapped my daughter into her car seat and pulled my vehicle out of the garage. In some cases, dog trainers may find that there is too big of a liability and won't work with your dog as a result. The following taboo topic article might surprise some, but I assure you that dogs killing dogs within the same household is common. I did it when she asked, but I shouldnt have waited for her to ask me. I cant shake the guilt as I have a reversing camera but at the time I was focussed on the wing mirrors as I was coming out of the garage. I cant live with myself in this severe pain. And while my friend suffers a lonely and agonizing death due to my negligence, Im relaxing inside, too lazy to care. Why not give the family another chance to show another dog the same kind of love Kion received? I'm actually crying. I wanted so much to save her and give her all the love she hadnt had until the day I found her. I needed to get a creep away he kept coming to my house and throwing rocks at window or banging on the door, my neighbors complained too. It was sunday , afternoon , I have 5 dogs , Im stupid. I thought Id done everything right: all the right vaccinations at the right time, a good habitat at home, clueing myself up on common illnesses and what to look for, how to spot depression, the right food, and finding her the best, most experienced rabbit surgeon I could. Answer (1 of 39): She always likes to bite my slippers. Tr he vents, windows, a/c, doorif only I read the damn pamphlet! Its a fucked up confession but what therapist treats their patient by telling them how awfully they are? Our other cat (the one whose died) is more of an outdoor cat and very self reliant with a strong hunter instinct. I could have tried cpr since theres a chance at 15 mins I could have gotten him to breathe again. If you believe in the kind of thing, I am sending my dog with messages of love to pets who have passed. He was irresistible my own tiny slice of heaven on earth. My sister killed my moms precious poodle flying down the driveway in her car too fast like she always did. But I'm the one that did it and the guilt is tremendous. That action was probably the worst thing Ive ever done in my life . I know she hates me. I gave her no food the night before the operation. I want to cry, I want to scream and hate myself but Im also just so numb. She did eat a reasonable amount before we left the house, and some in the car on the way there. There was nothing to lead me to believe that she had any serious underlying disease. The return throw struck and killed a pigeon in flight across the ground. I miss you . I went there with a tiny bit of apple along with raspberries that was Lollys favourite. These drugs are used to treat pain, inflammation, and fever in people. Did he wonder where we were, why we didnt look for him more? I explained that she is a nervous cat and had concerns about putting that added stress on her. She lectures in rabbit surgery at the Royal Veterinary College in London. 10 mins or so later they got him free but all i saw was his dead eyes and bloody mouth and claws (he was ripping his nails off trying to free himself). Depending on the manner of killing you can interpret . We moved about 2 weeks ago and both my wife and I were stressed out about it all the time, so I didnt give him much out time like I used to; maybe a total of 1 or 1 1/2 hours a day tops, and even then he would spend a chunk of that sleeping somewhere. The vet seemed satisfied. You are going to save that dog from euthanasia. I know that supervision is the answer for future contact with the rest of our pets, but I want to know how to deal with the fact that she actually killed something, even though it was (I hope) an accident. It hurts so much more that I dont even know exactly when she died and I couldnt find her in her usual state. Life us precious no matter how small..if I could go back just a few days I would appreciate gwen a lil more and give her what she needed. Tuesday morning also he didnt come to our room and I found that he was sitting near the neighborhood garden. Or something worse. He was a cockatiel that had been with me for over 21 years. Thank you. It was the first time I used that medicine (drops) and I usually research a lot before giving anything to my dog. Why didnt I go with my gut? The necrposy showed severe heart disease and thyroid hyperplasia and adenomas, moderate kidney disease, vascular changes and lung damage consistent with hypertension. I was alone, doing active cpr. She said she put him under the covers while he was going through his episode but she said thats how he likes to sleep, Im thinking to myself if he was panting it he probably was hyperventilating and if the actual condition didnt kill him then maybe he suffocated under the blanket because I couldnt move even if he wanted to because his front legs were paralyzed. i cant forgive myself. I called out for buttercup and did not spot her where I left her, when I looked over at Mr.Bing, his eyes moved to the floor behind him and it frightened me. I stopped handling her. I believe in my heart that Felix would still be here had I reacted faster. Our EIN number is 94-2681680. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. I feel I could have prevented it. I decided to bury him under a tree in the back yard. ( 3) Depending on the pet's weight, Benadryl can be lethal at doses between 24 mg and 30 mg per kilogram. Kion's a special case; although he also died too early, his owners have moved on, adopted another dog -- a bulldog this time -- that was about to be euthanized. Dealing with guilt when you caused your pets deathisnt just about grieving; its about cherishing the best parts of your life with your dog or cat. I decided to lie in bed and put her on my chest and comfort her as best I could until she passed. It's been 5 years since he died. All i can think of is when I was a drunk I was abusive to him. I wish I had asked them to give her IV fluids and keep her a few days to see if she bounced back. I thought as long as she didnt have an empty tummy shed be fine. This might be the single worse thing Ive gone through in life. Occurred on February 14, 2023 / Canada: "I came into my kitchen and found my dog with his head stuck in his treat box. 849 votes, 650 comments. We also experience anticipatory grief, or the feelings of grief while our pet is still living, but we are aware of an . Its just so sad and I hate to think how long she was in there stuck and struggling and suffering. "Labradors, however, might down the entire bucket." Not recognizing that your Yorkie, cockapoo, or Siamese cat was ill doesnt mean that you werent paying attention or taking good care of him or her! Her first year or two of life was full of adventure and love. original sound - Manar. My cat died because I was selfish. I said goodbye. You loved that he distracted you from the obvious deficits you have for being a decent human. Nothing we can say will take away the pain, but you're in my thoughts. Hopefully, we can help Hannah through as she is already quite clingy now. She ate something in the house I feel so guilty for not protecting her from whatever got stuck in her tummy, i knew she liked to pull at her towels and bedding but at 3 years I didnt realize it was unsafe I should have known better, I should have taken all the soft bedding away from her. I didnt try enough to save him. I continued with rescue breathing. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. You have probably never heard of this phenomenon because people rarely talk about the situation. but the guilt kept eating me up as I KNEW she wasnt ready yet. im so lost. No offense man but you really need some fucking help. The anger, guilt and sadness feels like it will consume me at times. Accidents happen but it's still sad when you care about them. I saw a single rabbit bolt down a hole when she saw me. Sadly at 5pm Single Dot left me infront of me. My goal was to rehabilitate the little bird to go back outside (I had asked my mom to take her to a specialist but it was a four hour drive she didnt want to make and I cant drive yet.) The next 3 hours are jumbled bits of hysteria, trauma, tears, and aggressive attempt to save my baby, who I thought was in fairly good health for a senior cat. It died in a few seconds but she cried for days, it was horrible. You must sue the defendant in the county where he or she lives or in the county where the death or injury took place. I hope I'm not intruding too much and you are somewhat O.K.